A lot of talk about readiness

I had a bunch of great conversations awhile back, with close friends and also with my future wife, and a lot of it centered around "are we ready?" Bride2 asked me if I was excited about getting married or excited about marrying HER. That's a really tough question.

I was trying to think about it. I think that I would be excited to plan a wedding regardless of who I was marrying, just because planning a big party to celebrate your love and life sounds like fun. However, I've never really wanted a wedding. Since meeting Bride2, a lot of the things I've not really thought about or wanted have fallen into place. I can't imagine thinking about this wedding and planning this wedding with a more perfect partner.

Part of me just wants to be married, skip the wedding part, lets just be married, live together, build a life and future together. And I have to remind myself that we're already doing that, building that life and future now. This is the person i want to build that with. And right now, and for the foreseeable future, I don't see that changing. We just fit too well to give it up.

A good friend from high school and I were talking about soul mates. We kind of agreed that we don't believe in soul mates. It's like, when you find someone good enough, solid enough, caring enough, you grab on, and you make it work. Not because you're soul mates, but because when you're 80 years old and the looks are gone, and the sex is gone, what are you going to have? Hopefully your best friend, sitting next to you, holding your hand, not because there is sex behind it, but because there is companionship and support and knowledge of a life together behind it.

And Bride2's best friend told me, when I worried that I loved Bride2, but how did i know if it was enough, that no one ever knows it's enough. You just make the decision that it's enough to try. So, yes, i'm ready. I'm willing to put in hard work, and make sacrifices (though i might need some help) and be half of a pair.